Head above water

I'm really glad that with Blogger you can choose not to actually publish something you've just posted, but just save it and ponder over it for a while. I woke up this morning feeling really low, and I wrote an appropriately depressing blog entry, but had my reservations about publishing it that way because we all know how annoying I am when I'm depressed. So I figured I'd see if the day changed my mind, and it did.

For posterity's sake, here it is:

Things are getting somewhat better. That performance went well, more so than I could have hoped for (Everyone was amazed by my "clear and spot-on" blocking choices. What the fuck?), and I'm finally keeping my head above water in French class. I did realize, however, that there is a creeping depression coming on. Which is unfortunate. I think this was brought on by the untimely realization that sooner or later my cat is going to die. And then where will I be?

Man, I'm so screwy. Somebody tell me I'm being ridiculous.

Ruthie of now to Ruthie of this morning: You're being ridiculous!

See, I just projected that back to my earlier self and I felt gently scolded even then. Funny how that works. Anyway, I feel better now.